Daily Confession...

I hate all my fuckin insecurities....I hate how it overpowers my feelings and everything. I'm sorry whenever my insecurities gets the best of me I act like a bitch to you because I can't let shit go thats been done and over with because I been hurt so bad that I haven't fully recovered from it and it still affects me. IM SORRY I CAN'T EVEN TELL YOU THIS BECAUSE I'M SCARED OF WHAT YOUR GOING TO SAY =(

I don't know why but...

I just can't tell you. There were so many times where I had the chance to tell you but I got scared. I don't know how your gonna respond. I'm scared your gonna get mad at me telling me to "forget the past, the past is the past, it's done and over with already" because that's what you told me before. That's what I'm afraid of. I rather cope with the tears when you act like that because you can't see that I am crying. I'm sorry I can't and haven't told you. I'm just scared I'm gonna hurt us if I did.

the intro to my "reason" i guess =/