idk...

I'm scared again..

Past the limit.

I'm so fuckin tired and sick of you. I'm tired of you degrading and judging me like I'm not shit to you. You always say things that hella hurt me and you don't even realize it. You see one picture of me with a guy and you tell me that I'm not gonna have a future, that I'm ruining my life. ONE picture! You've put me down my whole life and I'm sick of it. Finally when I try my hardest in school to meet up to your expectations, you never acknowledge or praise it. Nothing I do is ever good enough for you. When I graduate highschool, I don't want to see you again. When I graduate college, I don't want you to be there. When I get married, I don't want you to be there. When I have children of my own, for damn sure I don't want you to be their grandmother. You don't deserve ANY of that. I know it's not gonna happen but I wish once my brother graduates highschool, he moves out on his own. I wish my dad would divorce you and move out on his own, find and marry a woman who will treat him how he should be treated. Something YOU failed to do. You've put all of us through so much shit you don't even know. I don't really give a fuck about you anymore. I don't even consider you as my mother. I hope karma bites you in the ass. I'm hella done with you and I can't wait for what is about to lay ahead of me in a couple more months. I can't wait till the perfect time to say all of this to you face to face. You've push me to the limit where I can't deal with you no more. I hope you find someone who will bare with you and your ridiculous mindset. I can't wait till that final goodbye I'll have with you.